Occasionally you want to get off.
And you really don't want to get caught on camera with a terrified look on your face amid the beams of those around you.
But the more you ride the rollercoaster, the more you begin to anticipate the twists and turns, and the track's leaps and loops begin to feel familiar. You can hold down your lunch, you feel more and more comforted by how snug the safety bar is into your chest, and little by little, you can relax, throw up your hands and enjoy the ride.
But no matter what happens you never get to sleep...
Veggie Baby will be three months old in a matter of days. I'm told the first three months are the hardest, and sometimes it's that thought I've repeated over and over when I'm so tired at 3am I'm on the floor in her room, strategically covered in baby blankets with a cat trying to paw at my face and a baby that just can't quite get the hang of sleeping in her cot yet. Three months... things will be better by three months.
I'm pleased to say she's an awesome kid. She's happy, eats well, sleeps reasonably, smiles at everyone and generally is delightful. She's growing every day and doing things that babies do. And whether things "get better" after this week or not, I've had one hell of a ride. With a great companion.
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| I was totally not lying about the cat. |
She's a gorgeous bub & you are a great Mum, yes you have made it through the hardest adjustment, but there are many hard times yet to come and even more joyful ones. My advice to you , because I know you dont get nearly enough advice ;) is to just do what works for you & your beautiful family, never mind what all the other Mums are doing, because whatever the perception is on the outside you are all riding the same rollercoaster.
ReplyDeleteShe's completely precious. xx
ReplyDeleteShe is gorgeous. And you're a great mother - the hardest number is from 0 - 1 child. After that you knowwhat you're doing :) xx
ReplyDeleteShe is gorgeous. And you're a great mother - the hardest number is from 0 - 1 child. After that you knowwhat you're doing :) xx
ReplyDeleteShe's a gorgeous bub & you are a great Mum, yes you have made it through the hardest adjustment, but there are many hard times yet to come and even more joyful ones. My advice to you , because I know you dont get nearly enough advice ;) is to just do what works for you & your beautiful family, never mind what all the other Mums are doing, because whatever the perception is on the outside you are all riding the same rollercoaster.
ReplyDeleteOh Stacca, that is THE best picture with the pussy cat EVER. It wont' be long until you realise, "shit, we're all getting sleep, when did that happen?" You don't twig at the time, it's only later. xx She's gorgeous, you are gorgeous and you are doing a fanfuckingtastic job. xx
ReplyDeletecat as a hat made me laugh so hard I choked on my own spit.
ReplyDeleteAs I sit here with my eyes completely hanging out of my head, I say thank you! It won't be long... surely... haha. Pretty sure the cat's getting the best sleep out of everyone!
ReplyDeleteIt is definitely a roller coaster, but it goes so quick - you will seriously wonder where your baby has gone before you know it. Becoming a mother is the hardest yet most rewarding thing you will ever do. She is just beautiful - like her mama. xx
ReplyDeleteYou are sweetness on a stick, my dear. And so far it has gone super fast, she's a real little baby now, not a newborn. sniff!
ReplyDeleteThe roller coaster never ends, you just learn that whatever it gives you, you will never get it off. Not in a bad way, in the most wonderful and rewarding way. Which I am sure you already know.
ReplyDeleteBut yes, it all gets easier, sometimes you just don't realise it because you still haven't got enough sleep.
She is beautiful.
I love the roller coaster analogy. Crazy as it sounds, I can't wait to experience it myself. You're doing an amazing job and I can't believe how damn hot you still manage to look, despite the fact that you're getting no sleep. I know I've said it ten times before, but little Abby is SO cute. I just want to pinch those beautiful chubby cheeks... xxx
ReplyDeleteShe looks absolutely delightful and I adore the image of the two of you snuggled up together = precious.
ReplyDeleteSo happy to have found you {via Nikki 'Styling You"'s post today} and am looking forward to following and receiving lots of lovely veggie inspirations.
Felicity xx
Love that photo of Bobbin - you are doing great Stace. Veggie Baby is an absolute delight!
ReplyDeleteThat's a brilliant post and indeed motherhood is like that. And it never ends! And though it can be emotionally and physically challenging at times, I for one will never exchange it for another ticket ride.
ReplyDeleteVeggie Baby is beautiful. Sleep is highly over rated. Or at least that what I tell myself. Six years on and I'm still woken up at least once in the night. But it's all worth it.
ReplyDeleteLove love love the first photo of veggie baby. Also love the one with the cat. Reminds me of a photo of me with my first bubs, but I was asleep in chair with bubs still on the breast!
ReplyDeleteVeggie baby makes my uterus ache for a veggie baby of my own!
ReplyDeleteI've got a 12 week old darling girl too... and yes, I have to keep telling myself that it will only get better. I literally had a breastfeeding breakdown the other day and blurted it out yesterday on my blog. And then had another "one of those nights" last night *sigh* ONE day it will get better!!
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So beautiful.
ReplyDeleteI used to count the weeks in the night.
People told me that I just had to make it through the first 6 weeks.
6 weeks and 1 day - and my bub still had colic, reflux and a throat condition that needed surgery!.
It's the most fabulous ride there is.
Enjoy - and hang in there.
:-)