Friday, March 23, 2012

Let's talk about pregnancy hormones, shall we?

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Oh last time I was lulled into a false sense of security.

Last time, although I didn't enjoy being pregnant all that much, I was incredibly grateful I felt emotionally completely normal.

People would tell me they were screaming banshees at home, bursting into tears at the slightest provocation, berating their boyfriends, harassing their husbands.

Me? I had one crying fit at about 28 weeks when it was hot and it was Christmas and I was stressed and something little was aggravating.

Now? Oh my lord.

Someone telling me they keep getting email meant for me? Cue fury and pointed email back about mistakes and how easy they are to make and for god's sake I'm not harrassing you or unable to give others my correct email address, IT WAS ACCIDENTAL, WHAT ARE YOU GETTING ALL WORKED UP ABOUT?

We've actually had a pleasant back and forth after everybody calmed down... hi Stacey Roberts from NY!

Someone telling me something they already thought I knew but didn't? And writes in that harsh "this is the fact. everybody knows this" way? And I'm all "WELL NO NEED TO BE BITCHY, I WASN'T JUDGING YOUR CHOICES, I WAS CONFUSED AND DIDN'T REALISE EVERYBODY KNEW THESE FACTS BUT ME OH MY GOD". And they're all "oh you didn't know? sorry! here's the story".

But I'm still outside sweeping the floor like a woman demented muttering under her breath and stabbing at cobwebs.

I know this is all hormonal. I am not usually quick to anger, and I rarely see nastiness in things that are easily explained and worked out. The annoying this is it still feels like proper anger and frustration, even though it's irrational. I know it will pass, I know I'm getting worked up over nothing, but I still feel angry, goddammit! And I'm angry that I'm angry all the time! I'm not usually like this. It's exhausting. I'm already tired, I don't have the energy to be annoyed.

Oh and everything makes me tear up. I finally schlep three bags, the baby, water bottle, coffee and supermarket shopping bags into the car, ready to go to work and I realise I've left my phone inside the locked house? Frustration cry.

Taking my kid to the doctor because someone thinks she has an earache, but is really teething and hasn't slept for a week, which means I haven't slept for a week, and then the doctor says she's fine and going outside to start the car only to find that the battery is dead and it's raining and it's the kid's dinner time and my husband is a six-hour drive away? Uh-oh.

The baby doing something so sweet and adorable that I can't stand to look at her? Tissues, please.

I am too tired to be this hormonal for the next six months. Thank god babies are so cool.


28 comments:

  1. Hearing you loud and clear Stacey.  Preggy hormones are such a bitch.  xx

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  2. um yeah, i can't relate - as you know - but i hope your hormones realise that they should be playing nice and do so soon xxx

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  3. I was struck with the dreaded pregnancy rage with all three of my pregnancys, often followed with a side order of guilt and tears.
    I hope you are feeling better soon :( xx

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  4. Thank you - and thank you for bothering to comment. Most wouldn't xxx

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  5. The guilt and tears are the worst. Thankfully I can maintain the rage for the most part, but when I slip, the guilt crushes me. Stop betraying me, body!

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  6. Yikes! (Don't you love that word 'yikes'). I remember being pretty tortured with my third pregnancy and not so much with the first two. I noticed that after the Badoo was born I have always been much more rollercoastery with the hormones anyway. I put that down to 'age'. I am probably pre-menopausal or some old person thing like that.

    ANYWAY.

    Hope you settle down a bit. Just keep telling yourself that it's them not you. Hormones, I mean. x

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  7. PS - Just thought I'd mention that in my head you always look exactly like Nigella Lawson only fitter.

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  8. haha someone once sent the vlog I did to a TV producer, pimping me as the "vegetarian Nigella"... I would give anything for a British accent. I wonder if she ever spazzed out over nothing, then cried in the corner cos she felt so bad? Maybe that's why I'm so skinny and she's not... the stress! Or maybe it's her penchant for pig's ears.

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  9. I bet she cries all. the. time. And then comfort eats her delicious cakes. x

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  10. I was the calmest I'd ever been (quite literally, EVER) during pregnancy. Now though? I'm addicted to rageahol thanks to a lovely hormone imbalance I'm experiencing. Because I'm the type of person who analyses everything it's frustrating because I can see quite plainly how ridiculous I'm being... but can't stop it. GAH!
    P.S. I remember crying at nappy commercials when I was preggers :P

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  11. It still feels like proper anger, even when you know you're being irrational! That's the part that sucks... you've gotta ride out the storm. Ugh.

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  12. Uh, yep. I'm always crying over dumb things these days! My girls will run over to see if I'm ok & say, 'Is it baby tears again Mum?(they are 5 & 3).' And sometimes I lose the plot completely when no one is listening to me! But, hey, what do you do! It's all part of it! 23 weeks to go! xx

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  13. AH! I always think that too!

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  14. Baby tears! That is awesome! I'd be driven to a sobbing mess if I had older kids to deal with that weren't listening to me haha. Frustration to the max. Hope it goes fast xx

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  15. of course! even though i can't relate, i enjoy my flood of hormones every month and that's just for a couple of days, so can't even begin to imagine, weeks and months of them LOL

    ~x~

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  16. Oh honey, totally with you on every single word.....I'm still not "normal" though my poor husband is the person who cops the majority of my wrath. So freaking hard. Do whatever you need to, vent whenever you need to, you're absolutely not alone. xxxxxxxx

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  17. Oh, hun ... it's been 7 years since I was pregnant and I'm still like that some days. Just ask my husband! Second thoughts, DON'T xx You look beautiful, glowing and lovely ... and you bake great babies ... can't wait to meet this one!

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  18. I am not sure I have returned to "normal" after having my babies!

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  19. AbeachcottageblogMarch 26, 2012 at 8:45 AM

    oh I hear you!  I wish I could say there was a magic trick that will help...oh yes it's called the newborn baby smell...it's all worth it :-))

    when I see you this week, just ask me what I did when heavily pregnant with number 3...it will make you look good

    oh and just for the record, I am like all of those things you described above normally hahaha xx

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  20. I don't believe I'll ever return to normal! Not as long as I'm this tired, haha

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  21. I don't have the energy to be angry! I hate to think what I'll be like with two :-/

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  22. Haha I totally will! Something tells me this isn't the last I'll see of the crazy.

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  23. Haha I totally will! I expect this isn't the last I'll see of the crazy.

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